What is this funny feeling?

I cannot seem to shake what I shall no call: "Graditis"

I find myself writing and doing tons of things but I cannot stop looking at my calender and waiting for May 14th to come. I want to know what the future holds, where Nick and I are going to be and more importantly, if I got into a school!!! I feel like I have 50lbs on each of my shoulders and I cannot shake it off.

Oh future, when will you get here?

xoxo
Gossip Girl